2 yrs ago, i saw myself starting to be able to reign..
2 yrs later, i saw this coming, but not with such a drastic difference..
i just caused my club the loss of a national title..somehow i saw it coming, but not to the extent of losing both the points i played..
i think sunday was just wasnt the day for me..what ever i tried to do just couldnt work and my best shot failed me..i thought i cld manage the finals, but now i know i couldnt. i failed my club at the most crucial moment, causing them a great loss. their hopes rested on my shoulders, and i let them down.
i think i just need to realise why some things happened, and ask myself why even my best shot failed me when i needed it most. pple say the opponents played well, but that doesnt mean tht i still cant win..i used to fight for the team at the back, but now when im in the front, the team stumbles..
well at least this came now, rather than it come later in my sporting career. i just hope that this setback will be able to expose my faults and make me learn. the problem lies with one and only one person, myself. and that is wad i need to overcome now.
Father, i just pray for Your guidance now..
holidays lol
alright back from korea and msia...haha wasnt able to blog due to being busy with school work. left for korea lets see, abt 2 weeks ago..was on a monday and my bdae was tues..haha 2nd time celebrating my bdae overseas and at the same tournament.haha the last time the team leader didnt know it was my bdae, but this time the team leader's bdae was the day after mine lol..alright normal cele..cut cake etc.
well results wise, no one actually saw hopes of getting a medal, but it was a real experience for me..one of the days of the comp, i was thinking, since whoever i face in singles doesnt make a diff, i wld like to grouped with mizutani or chiang hong jie..haha and when i reached the place i actually found myself in chiang's group.. the match with him well, good experience..get to play with superstar who can even win gao ning haha..
asian standard is really world standard..got pple like kenta, seo hyun dok, li yang etc..mizutani is really a natural talent..hopefully will get to see him play more often..haha
the place we stayed in was a ski resort, everything was damn ex..lol. but it's korea.. haha. the place was good. there is like lan shop, billards and bowling, arcade, and this big patch of greenery beside a golf course for anyone to go and play in the afternoon and evening..
from the hotel to the comp arena, it was like a 50 min ride..first time we had to wait so long in the bus..wld either fall asleep or read harry potter lol..
well on the hold, even though it was a relaxing trip, well thnk God for letting me play my best and get the experience..this is really an opportunity hard to come by..
alright thn when i came back it was time to go to msia for the 3rd leg of the league..tianhoe joined us..i guessed he wanted to distress..ahaha..the first day passed quickly for us.thnk God. we ended at 8 plus compared to others who ended close to 10. first time we cld end so early on the 1st day.. well basically coz our draw was good..
at night went to hotel and 7 of us (including ah mann haha!) went to sleep in a room tht the hotel claimed was for 6. and when we went up, we saw just 2 queen size beds..lol so we took the top layers of the beds off to see whether we cld use the bottom layer for sleeping..and lol! the bottom layer was even softer thn the top layer mattress..so ended up no need to call extra bed..
after tht i went out to check out the area even though it was 11 plus.yl th wanted to sleep.haha somehow it seemed as though i was there for a hol..found a shoppping centre next to the hotel, and thn nearby there was roadside stalls selling burgers etc..
ok 2nd was lol crap..we really put in effort to win but lost..maybe coz the 1st day we had it too easy..thn lol 3rd/4th placing we calculated no matter who won it didnt matter alrdy, thn we just go lose 4-0.wanted to quickly come home in time for b div.only yl went to win one set lol..
haha ok successfully rushed through this post..
alright now hopefully i'll be able to concentrate on my work..thnk God for keeping me safe and healthy..
anyway to mr bi, thanks for ur help these few months..enjoyed the times with u.. all the best to u man...
office politics is something we dun wanna get involved in..zzzzzz